over

Are you seriously going to sit there and tell me you know me after two months? I can guarantee you don't. I know you don't because you sit there and tell me I'm not over him; come to my house I'll sit you on my couch where I sat and tell you the moment I got over him. I was with someone else, watching the incredibles, and when he left he took my face in his hands and kissed me right there on my front porch. I'll let you stand where I stood so you know it's real.

mirkat

I'm desperately missing my other half since she up and left me to pursue her lifelong dream blah blah blah. We talk like three hours every day. I'm pretty sure we talked more this week than we did the last three months. Clearly soul mates since time and distance don't phase us. I need a partner in crime, someone to find the mischief.

pretty

I can't wait to hang this light hoop on my wall!

joke

Yesterday E told me he wanted to see each other, for me to eventually be his girlfriend and for it to be the kind of relationship you take home to your parents. Then he said he could see himself loving me. We talked more then and today and finally I told him I couldn't give him what he wanted. He said he was sad and I told him just don't be depressed because of this, that he should be happy. Well, apparently he had other plans.

"You know what fuck this and fuck you. I've given my all to make this work and you can't answer one goddamn call from me or ever come see me. Whenever you grow up and quit acting like a baby over your ex(who is definitely over you), maybe call me. I had sex last weekend with a girl from Ole Miss and gave also had two other girls in bed and it has been GREAT, you're definitely missing out. so yes I've taken care of my options cause I knew this wasn't going to pan out. I've done a shit ton of cocaine and drank every single day while I've been here cause YOU have been stressing me out and that is the only thing making me feel better. Don't worry about me though, you never have in the first place. Have yourself a great dinner honey."

Sorry about that language. I got this when I ignored his phone call and told him I was at dinner. Sorry my dad yells when I pull my phone out at the table. Least I found one more I won't be marrying.

merp

Well I went and saw E today for a sit down to talk about Friday night. We got through it and nothing was actually meant and he asked me where we were. He's pledging and around beautiful girls all the time but didn't want to let this go before it has a chance to go anywhere. So I'm giving it a chance. Maybe this is what's best for me right now, who knows.

blast

so the other day i run into D at the joe and we havent spoken in months and i was a little drunk so i texted him and we end up deciding to talk. well that ends up at his house and long conversation short, hes wanted me for three years even though i kept hurting him. he cares more than i know and more than he would let me know. he wanted his chance and he wanted an us. lets talk about zero to sixty. im thinking we can leave here and be civil when we see each other in public. so that was a shock. then i worked thursday and friday and took cupcakes for a snack friday night and when i got off around two am i took them over to D (not the same D) Whitt and Wilson. E got mad when he found out even though i saved him one like i said i would. Whitt took my phone and told him to F off and i immediately said that and he told them to go to where he was that i better never let him touch my phone again or else. okay threaten me and die. then he says how dare i let him say that to him when he has been GREAT to me. yeah no text back. not even the next two days. i just let D down and told him i cant bring myself to hurt him again and E calls. what is life. thats just the last seven days of my life. bless my heart.

E

theres this guy ive "been seeing" or whatever for a few weeks, E, and im just not too sure about this one. normally i subconsciously decide to stay away from guys i end up flirting with or kissing or whatever if i like the guy. that has not happened and i soberly kissed some random guy at whiskey dix which almost started a barfight because i have insanely aggressive and protective friends. i even told my mom she would probably never meet this one. whyyy hes so sweet to me holds doors, bought my dinner, texts me to say hey hows your day, hes actually decent. so why do i also get not really shady but this feeling about him. and why cant i give him a fair chance. he told me to my face he liked me and wasnt seeing anyone else and hoped i did the same. then i kiss the random. why am i so messed up in my head.

this year

In lieu of a "resolution" these are just things I plan to do, more like goals. Get into nursing school and do well my first semester. Be a good nanny for Graham and not let him die on my watch. Get the job at UT in May. Have one hell of a twenty-first birthday. Be able to let go when I should. Make an A in my only class this semester and graduate with my Associates. Stop kissing so many random guys. And be strong enough to tell someone how I feel even though it will piss them off. Here's to another year with everyone I love!