rerun

this week has been a near mirror image of last week and i cant for the life of me figure out how i could screw it up just as bad. i could honestly care less about school which sucks on its own, then i met J and it was alright hes cute we had fun whatever. he gets pissed at me saturday and says we can just be friends and subtweets about me all week. then theres D, same exact thing. it was amazing when i met him, like perfect could be relationship. he met my family and was all cute and sweet then he was all rawr and saucy. what every woman wants. i bring him lunch and then boom that night he has all these tweets about how liking someone should be easy, hes simple and its not enough, materialism killed our generation, hes too misunderstood to be special for someone, he cant have what he wants because hes sub par, he gives up, and let him know when his worth is realized. im over here like what the hell did i do?! so i asked him best i could this morning in my least accusatory im worried about it voice and he said people just talk ish so he makes a point to prove them wrong. im sorry but i cant see a point being proven there. so how have i managed to push away two pretty great guys in two weeks and not have a clue why?