in love with a memory

its just hard lately and it shouldnt be. why does everything make me think of you? why do i want to tell you everything that happens? why do i just want your arms? i run it through my head so much and i cant figure it out. if we would just run into each other and speak, it would be different. i know it would. why do you keep coming back to me, causing problems? i hear the songs you sent me, the ones we listened to, new songs and still they all make me think of you. why the hell can i not get over this. why do i just want one more chance.i just felt so safe every time you held me. even when we werent together.i miss your eyes. no matter how angry things were, you made me happy and i havent found that. i just cant find anyone else like you. nothing similar. and i dont know if i refuse to see sameness but its just not there. you actually cared; youre the only one who ever saw me cry and held me. you just knew what i needed and you did it. i miss knowing someone so completely words are irrelevant.i want that again, desperately.