kelly lately

ive been noticing some changes these past few days and i think i welcome them. when i look back at what im doing i realize im doing things the way i did last year before any of the dramas. i love that im feeling like myself again, but then again i dont. i mean its like toothpaste. once you squeeze it out of the tube it will never go back in, why should i go back to my tube after ive learned and grown a bit. im surprising myself with all the "no's" ive been saying lately. im  glad i said it, but when i reflect im like but why? i just want that happy medium. my friends are coming back from their funk too and i think thats what made me come out of mine. its like it was before we had to deal with all the ish we deal with now. im ready for school, i know it means working less and being bored way more and seeing less of the friends but i think this year will be great. plenty of road trip weekend visits to some out of east tennessee places and i just want to feel like im actually doing something productive to my life. i also really miss yoga.